The sun hid behind clouds today, and seemed to disappear altogether much earlier than expected... particularly since the shortest day of the year is still two long months away. Of course, I must continuously remind myself: it is actually we who turn from the sun. If all goes well, we'll turn back towards the sun in ten hours or so.
Unless, of course, the rain shows up, trying as it did today to stand in for the sun.
A few years ago, a roommate of mine warned me that, after four or five years, the harsh and dark Seattle winters would start to "hit" me. She ominously warned that he solitude that I usually wrap myself in, being one who does not naturally or easily make friends, would suddenly transform into cold loneliness. Of course, I have a boyfriend, and a cat. But, they both have friends of their own. And now, here I sit in my fifth year living in Seattle, suddenly realizing that my former roommate's prediction may suddenly be coming true.
In any other situation - in any other city - I wouldn't worry. But, in Seattle, the possibility of my prideful solitude evaporating suddenly, being replaced with naked loneliness, is too great a burden to consider. How, after all, am I suddenly supposed to start making friends in a place like this?
I suddenly feel the need to graduate and move back to the friendly midwest... hot summers be damned. Or perhaps I can just grow up and prove my former roommate wrong.
Posted by James at October 24, 2007 09:40 PM